You needn’t worry about being useful

“Nowadays, there’s a tendency to make everything utilitarian even the things of the spirit; said Dame Clare....

...And you needed worry about being useful” said Dame Ursula, “ when you’ve become Gods in the measure He wants, He, Himself will know how to bestow you on others.” She was quoting Saint Basil. Then her face grew wistful. “Unless He prefers for thy greater advantage to keep thee all to Himself. That does happen to a few people. Yet paradoxically, they have the greatest influence.”

... “ Yes, because what is really apostolic, what really speeds God’s Glory, is not the time given to work but the holiness of the worker.” 

-In This House of Breda - Rumer Godden